*First a little WORD FROM ME*
So you have all thought that our blog was going private right? Yea me too..
WELL, it is going to be private, when I have the time to sit down and type in 80+ email adresses, its just not a high priority on my list of things to do. DON'T JUDGE ME please. I am not as put together as I once was. Sometimes its a miracle if I get a shower or get out of my lounge clothes.
NOW FOR THE MIRACLE
This little girl slept from 11:30 p.m. until 7:00 a.m. last night!!! Seriously a miracle! I think she was utterly exhausted. She was up from about 5:30 p.m. till 3:00 a.m. the previous night and then didn't sleep much during the day yesterday, then it happend she slept through the night!
The poor little girl has some tummy issues that we just don't know how to fix, she cries after every feeding and fusses almost all day long. Colic? Maybe, reflux? Maybe, Allergy? Maybe Gas? Maybe We have tried it all and we just don't know.
Her Doctor has tried Reflux medication (Prevacid) after a week we didn't notice a difference. We tried switching to Soy formula didn't notice a difference. Tried a Hypo-allergenic formula that is $22 for a SMALL can!!! We still have her on that and we haven't noticed much of a difference either. Took her back to the Doc and he prescribed her an antibiotic (side effect of it is that you have less stomach acid) did nothing! TOok her back again ( I am not giving up) Prescribed her another medicine that aids in moving things through the stomach and intestines, we are now on day 4 of that, and I am not being faithful with it because usually when I give it to her she throws up within 20 seconds of giving it to her! Not seeing a difference with it either. *sigh* I just don't know what to do!
The last 7 weeks have been tough, I feel so bad for my baby. I know her tummy hurts and I don't know how to fix it. I feel like if we just call it "colic" that we are just coping out! I know its not her just being unhappy, i truely believe by the way she acts that she is in pain. I feel since I am her mom, I have to keep trying. She has no choice, and cannot advocate for herself and so it is my responsibility to be her voice. But at the same time, there are only so many things I can do. I feel like I am almost to the end of any possibility to a quick fix and I am afraid I will have to wait it out, therefore she will be in pain everytime she eats which is so UNFAIR!
The fussiness is HARD! It gets frustrating and I feel so helpless a lot of the time. I feel like a bad mom, and get down when I see other moms and their "perfect" happy babies, and it seems as though they have it all together all the time.
Heck, most days I look like I just woke up. My house looks like either I am packing, or unpacking you just can't tell which, and I have had my house for almost two months now! I wear make up maybe two times a week, I have a tear stained face a lot of the time, and I feel like I need to wear a sign around my neck that says "please don't judge me, I have a baby that needs me almost every second of the day"!
Despite the difficulty, I LOVE her, she is my daughter and such a blessing in our lives. She is beautiful! Even though she is unhappy a lot of the time, she tries so hard to be happy! In between cries she smiles when I talk to her, and her smiles melt my heart!! She actully smiles a lot! Especially in the morning! She is my sweetheart, and my little buddy. We spend lots of time walking around our house, bouncing, talking, rocking and singing together. I hope that she will feel better soon, and that we can find something that will work for her. I hate to see her in pain, and being a parent has made me realize just how much love you can have for a child. I love you Brielle, just know that I am trying my best.
I think he is so hot in a tux! Especially holding our little B-bug!
The ceremony
Brian and Jocie!
Flowergirl Allie, she loved "dancing" with Nolan
"ring boy"
Maggie and Brielle
