Blessing Day

Brielle recieved a name and a blessing by her daddy on December 12, 2010. Nolan did a fantastic job, he was so sweet preparing and took it to heart. We were so worried that she would be fussy during her blessing but she was absolutely perfect the whole day! We said a little prayer before church and it was definitely answered!





Our little family.

Brielle looked beautiful in her pretty white dress. I couldn't decide if I would have her wear my blessing dress or get her, her own. I found this one and I fell in love with it!

SMILEY PRINCESS

Her little booties were ones that my mom wore when she was a baby. They are so cute!

GREAT GRANDPARENTS (Nolans Grandma and Grandpa)

My Grandpa and Rene

Daddy and his sweet girl

OUr family and friends who came to support us.

Lauren was in from Maryland and I was so happy that she was there to share her special day!

Our friends Tyrell and Kilee

Cousins-Tat and Nicole

Life in Brielle's world

Our sweet girl Brielle is 2 months old! I can't believe it! I can't imagine life with out her! She is really starting to show us personality and it is so fun to watch her change every day! I love this picture of her cuddling with Nolan. He is so sweet with her.



She had her two month check up last weekend and got her shots! It was so sad, Nolan took her and I stayed home, I just didn't have the heart. He said that she did really well, and only screamed for 30 seconds until she got her bottle. She weighed 10 lbs 14 oz that is the 52 percentile, and we love her little chubby legs she is starting to get!

Some new things in the last two months:

-Brielle had her first over night trip and stayed in a hotel for the first time. She even had a sleep over at her friend Maggie's house!

-Brielle is finally living in her new house

-Brielle is experiencing her first Christmas season. Looking at the christmas tree lights and decorations at our house, and dressing warm in her boots to go out in the cold and getting her first Christmas dress.

-Brielle had her first fever and it broke my heart, welcome to parenthood.

-Brielle has always smiled. Seriously since day one she has been a smiley baby. SHe smiles a lot and she is now becomming very responsive to talking and will give you smiles if you chat with her. She also is trying to talk back and has started little coo's. IT IS SOOO CUTE!

-Brielle started sleeping most the night from 11p.m-5:30a.m. It WAS so nice. She was very consistant for about 2 or 3 weeks, then just recently it changed back to her newborn schedule :( she wakes up at about 3a.m. and 5:30 a.m. and sometimes more.

-Brielle LOVES LOVES her baths. It is the highlight of her day I think. No matter how fussy she is once you put her in the bath she stops.

-Brielles tummy is getting better! We switched formula again and have her on a different medicine and she is not throwing up anymore, just spit up now! She seems to be a bit happier after she eats now. We are so grateful

-She loves her carseat. She loves to ride in the car and falls asleep almost instantly when she gets in her carseat. (it's the only time she naps)

We love her and she is growing so fast! She is adorable and has brought so much joy to us and our families.

SMILES SMILES SMILES it makes all the hard times worth it!

Her Christmas dress from Grandma. She got her pictures taken with all her cousins!

Mr. Handsome and Little B-bug

Nolan's brother Trevor got married last weekend. He married Shelbie, and we are so excited to have her in our family! The wedding was beautiful! Nolan was a groomsmen and looked so handsome! (I don't know why blogger loaded these pics blurry!)

I think he is so hot in a tux! Especially holding our little B-bug!

The ceremony

Brian and Jocie!

Flowergirl Allie, she loved "dancing" with Nolan

"ring boy"

CONGRATS SHELBIE AND TREVOR WE ARE SO HAPPY FOR YOU! THANKS FOR SHARING YOUR SPECIAL DAY WITH US!!

BEST FRIENDS

Also that weekend we were able to stay with our friends Caden and Megan. Nolan's best friend growing up, and he and Caden were born 3 or 4 days apart (I can't remember). So when Megan and I were pregnant together we were so excited to find out we were both having girls, and they are 2 days apart!! They are bound to be best friends!!!

Maggie and Brielle

A little update on our Sweet Girl

*First a little WORD FROM ME*

So you have all thought that our blog was going private right? Yea me too..

WELL, it is going to be private, when I have the time to sit down and type in 80+ email adresses, its just not a high priority on my list of things to do. DON'T JUDGE ME please. I am not as put together as I once was. Sometimes its a miracle if I get a shower or get out of my lounge clothes.

NOW FOR THE MIRACLE



This little girl slept from 11:30 p.m. until 7:00 a.m. last night!!! Seriously a miracle! I think she was utterly exhausted. She was up from about 5:30 p.m. till 3:00 a.m. the previous night and then didn't sleep much during the day yesterday, then it happend she slept through the night!

The poor little girl has some tummy issues that we just don't know how to fix, she cries after every feeding and fusses almost all day long. Colic? Maybe, reflux? Maybe, Allergy? Maybe Gas? Maybe We have tried it all and we just don't know.

Her Doctor has tried Reflux medication (Prevacid) after a week we didn't notice a difference. We tried switching to Soy formula didn't notice a difference. Tried a Hypo-allergenic formula that is $22 for a SMALL can!!! We still have her on that and we haven't noticed much of a difference either. Took her back to the Doc and he prescribed her an antibiotic (side effect of it is that you have less stomach acid) did nothing! TOok her back again ( I am not giving up) Prescribed her another medicine that aids in moving things through the stomach and intestines, we are now on day 4 of that, and I am not being faithful with it because usually when I give it to her she throws up within 20 seconds of giving it to her! Not seeing a difference with it either. *sigh* I just don't know what to do!

The last 7 weeks have been tough, I feel so bad for my baby. I know her tummy hurts and I don't know how to fix it. I feel like if we just call it "colic" that we are just coping out! I know its not her just being unhappy, i truely believe by the way she acts that she is in pain. I feel since I am her mom, I have to keep trying. She has no choice, and cannot advocate for herself and so it is my responsibility to be her voice. But at the same time, there are only so many things I can do. I feel like I am almost to the end of any possibility to a quick fix and I am afraid I will have to wait it out, therefore she will be in pain everytime she eats which is so UNFAIR!

The fussiness is HARD! It gets frustrating and I feel so helpless a lot of the time. I feel like a bad mom, and get down when I see other moms and their "perfect" happy babies, and it seems as though they have it all together all the time.

Heck, most days I look like I just woke up. My house looks like either I am packing, or unpacking you just can't tell which, and I have had my house for almost two months now! I wear make up maybe two times a week, I have a tear stained face a lot of the time, and I feel like I need to wear a sign around my neck that says "please don't judge me, I have a baby that needs me almost every second of the day"!

Despite the difficulty, I LOVE her, she is my daughter and such a blessing in our lives. She is beautiful! Even though she is unhappy a lot of the time, she tries so hard to be happy! In between cries she smiles when I talk to her, and her smiles melt my heart!! She actully smiles a lot! Especially in the morning! She is my sweetheart, and my little buddy. We spend lots of time walking around our house, bouncing, talking, rocking and singing together. I hope that she will feel better soon, and that we can find something that will work for her. I hate to see her in pain, and being a parent has made me realize just how much love you can have for a child. I love you Brielle, just know that I am trying my best.

Last Chance

Last Chance to give us your email if you want to keep seeing pictures of this little cutie! We are going private this week!!

Locking the doors A PRIVATE BLOG

IT'S TRUE..We are going private! My friend recently informed me of the scary, creepy, people out in cyber world. Especially with pics of the new house, and Brielle, I don't want to risk anything!

SO PLEASE if you stop by once in awhile, or if your a "POULSON BLOG DIE HARD" leave your email adress! Let's be honest..WE all blog stalk, don't hesitate to keep stalking--KNOWINGLY. Thanks friends!

BIRTH DAY

So this is not going to be an entire birth story but rather a readers digest of the day Brielle came to the world.

My water broke Sunday morning, I was due to be induced Monday morning. I always wanted my water to break, i was so excited after I determined it was my water and that I indeed did not wet the bed. We got to the hospital and they started my pitocin awhile later. A few hours later I got my epidural.

Nolan and I just hanging out before that pain set it (notice the smile)

One of the hardest parts about the whole thing was my dad had to leave on a business trip at 6:00 p.m. we knew she probably would not get there until after then, but before he left we had a daddy daughter chat and I shed a few tears, I really wanted him there and I knew if he could of missed it he would. However just like my dad always does, he talked to me and made me feel better.

The sisters just hanging out at the hospital watching movies and talking.

Then came the uphill battle. Around 6 o'clock I started feeling my contractions. I thought it was just because I was laying on my side and needed to change positions, I also pushed my epidural button, we waited for it to kick in but nothing happened after about 30 min. I could move my legs and was feeling everything! I was in so much pain and Nolan helped coach me through my contractions-- I felt like I was on a Baby Story having natural childbirth. I was in tears. The nurse called the anesthesiologist and he came and gave me a bolus shot of the epidural meds to see if that would work, at the same time my mom went to flip my pillow over because I was sweating in pain. She found a wet spot on my pillow which happened to be my epidural medication--yea the tube came unscrewed and I was not getting any medication. Also at the same time the nurse checked me and I was at an 8 PLUS!!! I could not believe I was at an 8 and feeling everything!! It still was not working and I was sobbing with each contraction. The man with the drugs came in and said ok here is a direct shot of Lidacaine, you won't be able to move your legs at all!! It slowly started to work up my legs right in time for them to call the doctor and for me to push. I started pushing at 8:41 and Brielle came at 9:24. The actual labor(pushing) was so tiring but I loved it!! It was such an amazing experience! When they layed her on me, I sobbed. I was just SOO happy!! Brielle weighed 7lbs. 4oz. and 20 inches long. Nolan was amazing during the whole thing. He was supported and involved, and you should have seen him after she came out--video camera in one hand, camera in the other, and the biggest smile you have ever seen.

HOLDING my LITTLE GIRL for the first time. Right after she got weighed and measured and wiped off.

PROUD NEW PARENTS

OUR AMAZING MIDWIFE, I enjoyed her so much during my entire pregnancy

Then came the adoring family. The new Payne girl Clan

And of course the EXCITED Grandma's!

First Time Grandma

Auntie Staci

Nolan changed all of her diapers in the hospital. This was her fist one.

Visitors came to see our girl. Here is Aunt Shanna and Uncle Chris

Aunt ALI

Our sweet girl has so much dark hair and EVERYONE loved it! The nurses had to call who got to give her, her bath. Also one night they brought her to me at 2:00 a.m. and she had gotten a bath and different bows. I said "oh you gave her a bath!" Then at 5:30 she came back and her hair was different and she had different bows--I asked "did you give her another bath?" No we just washed and played with her hair. It is gorgeous. We love it!

LATE LATE NIGHT at the hospital because we didn't want to giver her to the nursery yet. We just wanted to cuddle.

Then Daddy had to have his turn and they had some good cuddle time on the couch.

Going home outfit. Daddy picked it out! This is only a few hours after we finally chose her name: Brielle Melise Poulson. Can you believe this smile?

Daddy and Brielle ready to go home.

WE are beyond elated to have her in our family. I never knew the joy, love, and happiness that I could feel with having a baby. It was the best moment of my life to give birth to her and hold her for the first time. We are just completely enjoying her, and she is absolutely beautiful, I just can't get enough of her. Nolan has been an amazing dad so far. I have really really enjoyed watching him with her. The way he looks at her and talks to her brings me more happiness than I can even explain. (Ok I know, this is so much deep feeling stuff, but I just can't help it!)

Our Little Brielle

This is when my dad got to see her for the first time. He had this grin on his face for about an hour! She loves cuddling with him cause he is so warm.

The new grandparents--I LOVE THEM! THey have been such an amazing help to us, I could not do it without them!

Some visitors- Brandon and Lauren--Brielle litterally melted their hearts :)

AAAAAAAHHHH... she is so cute!

She is such a good baby! We adore her if you can't tell.

First time we washed her hair. She was not too happy.

First Family Walk. It was so fun to get out together and go on a walk. Brielle love it, she slept the whole time :)

THE PROUD DADDY!!!

Love at her bright eyes! AND SHE IS SOO TINY!

KISSES from MOM!

I don't want her to grow up!!!

SHE always has to have her hands by her face, she did this in my belly too!

Seriously isn't she adorable?

Dad and Brielle watching conference together!